You know that thing that keeps you up at night? The first thing you think about in the morning when you’re starting your day? You know it’s tugging at you to take action, but life is busy and messy and you couldn’t possibly have more time to figure it out? Well, as it turns out, that feeling won’t ever leave you if it’s what you’re meant to do. July 2017 is when I finally decided to stop just thinking about it and start being about it. I was sitting out at the pool listening to a Jack Canfield podcast, writing down 100 goals I wanted to accomplish when one of my best friends sent me a link to a little girl from our hometown being diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia. That was all I needed to see to finally listen to that voice. Fast forward to March 8th, 2018 and Fourth and Gold officially launched.
I grew up in a small town, graduated with a class of 74 students and had no idea what I was going to do with my life. I went off to college to play softball and major in Biology, but it never felt right and I never felt optimistic about my future career. I knew I had a big heart with a lot of passion, but wasn’t sure what I could do with it at the time. In 2010, I decided to take a leap of faith and move to Florida, still without having a clue about the future. My dad, an ER physician, brought up the idea of nursing school. Sure, I thought. I have to do something, right? I graduated 2 years later knowing my heart and soul was in pediatric oncology, but also knew that I would have to get experience in adults before I could land my dream job. I did 4 years with adults, 3 in orthopedics/neurosurgery and 1 in organ transplant. And then came my breakthrough. I finished my BSN, re-applied for pediatric oncology and the rest is history. I am confident in saying that working within the childhood cancer community is what I am destined to do.
You may be wondering, “if you’re a nurse working with kids with cancer, why the business?” This might sound crazy… but I don’t feel like I am doing enough while nursing. I’ve lost way too many kids who mean so much to me. The tug is still here every single morning and late at night when I can’t fall asleep because I know my work is just beginning. You see, the reality is, if you’re not connected within the childhood cancer community, you likely don’t understand the harsh reality of it. You probably don’t know that the government only gives our children 4% of all cancer funds, that only 3 new treatments have come out since 1970 for childhood cancers and that many of the kids are on clinical studies because there hasn’t been an effective regimen for their type of cancer released. The bottom line is, I’ve made it my mission to change that. The heart and soul behind Fourth and Gold is making you aware of the unfair fight that the children are up against and fighting like crazy to make it change.
Are you still reading? If you are, you know that I’ve already read the above story 47 times, backspaced, re-wrote, deleted and then just kept going. I’m an over-thinker. I get anxious more than I’d like. My dog, Fynn, is my best friend. My idea of a fun Saturday night is watching Dateline ID and getting into bed by 9:30. I write a lot because it brings me comfort. Fall is my favorite time of the year because the Jacksonville Jaguars have my heart (for better or worse) and there’s nothing more I love than spending the weekends with family and friends watching them play. Y’all- life is messy and ultimately short. So take your biggest desires, passions dreams, and then go fight like crazy to make them reality.
It was all a dream…